Stretching Out Our Hands In Mercy

In this season of repentance, let us stretch out our hands in works of mercy; and then the ascetic struggles of the fast will bring us to eternal life. For nothing saves the soul so much as generosity to those in need, and alms giving combined with fasting will deliver a man from death. Let us do all of this with gladness, for there is no better way, and it will bring salvation to our souls. 
Thursday Apostica of the second week of the Great Fast. 

As we struggle with the weakness, busyness and distractions that always accompany Great Lent, it is easy to wonder if we are really accomplishing anything at all.  The hymns of the Church remind us that when works of mercy accompany fasting, this is actually saving our souls, delivering us from death.  Why is this?  It is because when we show mercy, we are being and becoming more like God Himself who is merciful.  

We fast to restrain ourselves.  This is the negative aspect of the Fast.  Fasting from foods (kinds of food and amount of food) is only an outward and easily controllable manifestation, sign or vanguard of the real work of self control inside us.  This inner fasting is the really hard work, but it is the work that diminishes the power of sin in our lives.  It is the work of saying no to ourselves, and thus saying no to lusts and passions, greed and manipulation of others,  it is this work that retards the growth of sin and manifest to God our desire to be completely free from sin.

However, there is also a positive aspect to the Fast.  It is alms giving, acts of mercy; here we actually become more like God.  Here is transformation, here is the Light of Tabor manifest.  Certainly some holy men and women see with their own eyes the Uncreated Light of Tabor, but acts of mercy also shine with this same Light--even if our eyes are too dull to see it.  Even the blind can show mercy.  Even the weak can participate in the Life and Light and Grace of God.  How?  Through alms giving: works of mercy.

In a dark night, a very small light shines brightly.  Those of us in the dark night of the world should not despair that our Light seems so small.  We are in a dark world: even a little light shines brightly.  Do not despair, but hope in God.  The Day is coming when all the sins we fast to deny will be taken from us.  The Day is coming when our little bitty Light will be joined to the Search Light of God's Love and Mercy and Grace.  The Day is coming when all that is hidden will come into the Light.

In the mean time, we fast.  We pray.  We show mercy and have compassion.  In the darkness we yearn toward Light and toward Love; and so we are transformed, bit by bit, into that very Light and Love we long for.

Fasting

At the end of Romans, starting with chapter 12, St. Paul begins to give practical application.  It is the common pattern in St. Paul’s letters to start by thanking and praising God (doxology), and then move on to explaining a little about who God is and what He has done for us (theology), and then to move on to behavioral application, the “so what” of theology: how we apply theology in our life to be transformed and saved (soteriology).  One of the practical aspects of Christian life that St. Paul deals with at the end of Romans is fasting.  But he does not say what most people think he will say.

In Romans 14, St. Paul contrasts those who fast (eat only vegetables) with those who “eat all things.”  What is surprising is that St. Paul says that “he who is weak eats only vegetables.”  That is, the weak are the ones who fast while others “believe they may eat all things” and so don’t fast.  Although the exact historical context in which St. Paul is addressing this matter of eating or not eating is not the context of liturgical fasting; nevertheless, the Church presents this passage on the Sunday of Cheesefare (the last Sunday before Great Lent begins) as the model for Christian liturgical fasting: “He who is weak eats only vegetables.”

For almost all of my life I have been under the impression that it was the spiritually strong who fasted.  So when I exegeted this passage, I used all of the exegetical tricks to make this passage not really mean what it said.  I just couldn’t wrap my mind around the possibility that fasting was a manifestation of weakness.  After all, Jesus fasted, the Apostles fasted, great Christians throughout the ages fasted.  How could fasting be for the weak?  Later on in the chapter, St. Paul turns the table somewhat and argues that although “nothing is unclean,” one should not eat anything if it might offend the weaker (fasting) brother.  So I interpreted the first part of the chapter to mean the exact opposite of what St. Paul actually says.  I argued that it was a rhetorical set-up to make the point at the end of the chapter that the strong (whom, I argued, St. Paul was facetiously calling “strong”) should fast anyway for the sake of the weak (whom, I argued, St. Paul was facetiously calling “weak”).  Thus I got the passage to mean what I already believed.

 However, recently I have begun in the smallest possible way to become aware of the mystery of weakness.  Jesus fasted because he was weak--He took on our weakness.  The Apostles and Saints fasted because they knew their weakness, because of their dependence on God, because of their weak, fickle and unreliable self.  In their weakness they fasted, and in fasting found God’s strength.  I no longer read St. Paul’s use of weak and strong in this passage as examples of facetious language.  Rather, I see St. Paul revealing a mystery.  God’s strength is perfected in weakness.

St. Paul’s instruction to those who do not fast is quite interesting.  He says, “let not him who eats despise him who does not eat.”  It is very easy, even natural in a merely human sort of way, for the strong to despise the weak.  “Those who need a crutch use a crutch,” the strong may say (or think) concerning the weak.  The strong see no need to fast too much, to pray too much, to pay too much attention to matters of the soul.  And thus the strong may be tempted to despise those whose religious zeal seems to be too much.  The strong may indeed see (or merely think they see) the many weaknesses of the weak ones who fast and pray so diligently, and because of those weaknesses be tempted to look down upon or despise them.  St. Paul warns the believing strong ones not to despise the weak ones, for as St. Paul says elsewhere, it is when I am weak then I am strong.

To the fasters St. Paul gives this exhortation: “Let not him who does not eat judge him who eats.”  Here St. Paul get’s pretty forceful: “Who are you to judge another man’s servant?”  Whenever those who fast judge those who do not fast, they are doing nothing less that usurping God’s place as master.  It is better not to fast at all than to fast and judge those who do not fast.  Those who do not fast may not be fasting because they are strong (which which may or may not indeed be the case), but those who fast and judge do so only by putting themselves in God’s place as judge (which is sin approaching the level of Lucifer’s self exaltation).  Again, it is better not to fast than to fast and judge.


In the Pachomian communities (Egypt, 4th -7th centuries), the monks were commanded to eat with their large cowls pulled over their heads so they could not see what or how much their neighbour was eating.  We would not be hurt if we practiced a similar discipline.  I don’t suggest that we wear cowls to eat, but I do suggest that we take St. Paul’s words at face value: “Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food.”  What my brother or sister eats of doesn’t eat is none of my business.  Who am I to judge God’s servant?